I stood still
so sure that time
was on my side
my justification
my deliverer
so sure that we
would have time
to do more
than just live
in close proximity
I was so confident
that we were spiraling
ever closer
carried on an
autumn's breeze
I recall your hesitation
defiant brilliance
steady perseverance
a distant specter
of youth
I recall my patient muster
cool demeanor
and well laid plans
all dashed violently
against the rocks
off some forgotten island
while I sailed
gallantly across the sea
who was I?
that brave explorer
that humble conqueror
of all the greatest aspirations
my naivety could imagine
who was I?
filled exactly to the brim
with equal parts
wonder and satisfaction
content to yearn
while standing still
I could hear the words
between the words
you'd speak
the spaces fully occupied
with intentions so fierce
they would take
even the most innocuous
of your phrases captive
holding your subtlest
glance for ransom
yet you always
seemed to embrace
your unintended
transparency
who were we?
so sure
that our futures
would stand together
you gently pressing closer
while I stood fast
who were we?
trusting our lives
to an ill conceived
sense of fate
now as time
has hurried onward
we have changed
ourselves
no longer meant
to stand together
for we were set afloat
on different currents
I, destined to wander
searching patiently
for things I always
had
you, firmly taking hold
of what was in your grasp
someone more
tangible than I have
ever been
who were you?
to see something
of importance in me
when I had so little
of myself to give
who were you?
to see happiness
within your reach
and clutch it
without flinching
without reluctance
without doubt
what I would give
to see the faintest glimmer
of the hope that you once
shared with me
flicker in another's eye
as she gazes
in my general direction
what I would give
to clutch
to grasp
to hold on to
someone who is
in my arms reach
someone
who will stand with me
someone
set on my own current
but
yet, I stand still
